Empowering Truth
To be in clarity means that one has to develop an identity separate from that of his mother. That only works if the mother herself has developed a clear identity. The unclearer she is in who she is, the more difficult it’ll be for her children to distinguish themselves from her and to develop their own I.
- Franz Ruppert
I’ve known for some time now that identifications and entanglements, especially with parents, have prevented me from being who I really am. This concept however has remained abstract and cognitive as long as I haven’t looked at my earliest experiences in relationship to my mother and father.
Getting there takes a bit of time and space to develop enough solidity and safety within so I can receive the truth.
In my personal journey I might have reached that point just recently when I was triggered in a core pain of mine. Having had the chance to immediately do a self-encounter in the presence of an attentive facilitator has made all the difference. I could clearly see the internal conflict and confusion that has influenced my entire life: a part of mine being in complete symbiosis with my mother, with very little room to develop my own identity, and another part feeling isolated and left alone nonetheless.
Being able to clearly see and feel that is powerful because:
I acknowledge my truth, that is my experiences and how they’ve translated into overwhelm and grief from the beginning of my life. Since I had nobody that regulated me and held my experience, it’s been stored inside of me, having erupted when my own daughter was born.
I am now an adult - and as such I can embrace the small parts of me that have endured chaos, no longer waiting for a parent, who never appears, to pick them up.
I’m meeting myself, my history, my psychological development, in the presence of others, who witness and/or guide me gently. Holding space is the most underrated human facility. It makes all the difference if space and time is needed to connect with what has been split off and suppressed for decades.
A session usually takes some time to sink in and to gently steer all systems towards the truth.
I don’t think I’ve ever felt as empowered as I have after I connected with my two traumatised baby parts. It feels relieving and grounding to see what has been true for me - and to also realise the many relational side effects of not having embraced it for so long.
It’s amazing how many lies, deceit, and cover ups we’re willing to bear or even to augment just so we don’t have to get in touch with our deepest pain. Luckily, we don’t have to connect with it in a burst. Instead we can slowly approach it piece by piece, in our own pace and rhythm.
The truth is healing, it’s empowering, and it’s connecting - with your authentic Self and in authenticity with others.