These times are terrifying for me. While the socio-political narrative implies that we’ll soon be back to some type of normalcy, some type of “better,” this is an experience that I don’t share. While I don’t intent to ponder about the “rights” and “wrongs”, I wonder how I can use this time of upheaval, of transition, and of renewal to prepare myself for what is shaping up, sensing that the “shaping” is much more in our hands than many of us assume. (…)

The more I meet myself in all my nuances, experiences, emotions, and needs, the more I realize my capacity to be in relationship with others; and at the same time to sense and hold my boundaries. (…)

It’s hard to put into words what’s going on for me these days. I might be going through a phase, or I’m entering a completely new awareness of who I am and what it means to be alive. (…)

Much as I’ve come to see that I don’t need methods and techniques to thrive in relationships and life, I continue to realize on a deep level that the urgent pace of modern life is not in sync with my pace of taking in, processing, and thriving. Reclaiming my own unique bodily, emotional, and mental rhythm is key to thriving in an organic, fulfilling, and inspiring way. (…)

There is one big thing that I have come to realize the more I progress in my identity development: namely, that it becomes impossible for me to live a textbook life, one that is defined by to do’s, goals, successes that everyone understands, and techniques to manipulate and control the challenges in my relationships and life. (…)

I’m writing these lines in a state of rage, as clear and as much at the forefront as I’ve ever witnessed it before. (…)